Not every love story ends in death ,but ends in marriage too.And Not every marriage ends in death,but ends in divorce too.We may fail in love and fail in marriage.None of them is the end of life.Though love and marriage seem different ,they are same.Except marriage has a big number.Big number of people involved in.Love is pure and eternal same as marriage.Love has commitment,responsibilities same as marriage.But these are not same as life.Because life is more than just a relation.Let Life define more about you,than who you were with.Embrace yourself for what you are.And don’t stop to move on and don’t stop to live .
Editor:”Well,this looks out standing and admirable ,you are……..?”
Me: There you go!!!(He only gets my entire bio data when something ‘s wrong with me)
Saying this I left the office .I felt relaxed when this Ayush work came to an end.Just to say “admirable” and “out standing” is something great to fall into our ears for a work.I did not feel a slice of happiness though.
I was sitting at the TV and did not possibly watch any of it.My phone was vibrating and I took the call,it was my “mom”.I guess she felt her daughter, not doing well.Before I could completely lift the call I decided to go home.
“Really!!How many days do you stay?When are you coming?” Mom exclaimed when I told her I am coming.Not only her ,I felt over joyed listening to my own words.
Mom:tell me what happened? Are you not well
Me:I am fine (another bitter lie .But ,don’t you worry!! she already know you are not well .When any mom puts a question in front of you about your well being. she only wants to know ,how well you lie and how grown up you are).
Tada….I am home
Nothing else is comparable to this lovely feeling ,it was like I left home a million ages back ,I checked every nook and corner ,the greenery around me,the backside view of poultry,my wander place balcony and also pretty mom.It had been days at home and I never had a thought of my phone and the office and the editor.It lasted for a moment for I was thinking why not just stay here?.
And I heard my dad calling from behind.Well,let me tell you about my dad,he is not good ,because he is amazing.He never wants me to pick a choice ,because everything is of mine.He never compels me,but guides.He never scolds,but warns.He never argues,but teaches.I didn’t hope he had something this time ,I didn’t see it coming.
Unlike before ,he did not ask anything about my work,food,living and friends.He ordered me to quit job and stay back.
A Big Hello!!!! to all the bloggers.Well,It has been a very very long time since I penned down.Above post is the continuation of my series.Hope you recollect it and I hope ,I will post the next episode very soon.Thank you all!!!
Hello all! I am very glad for posting this.As this his been a second compliment in a row.I am very thank full to my fellow blogger for nominating me.He is sunil singh.He is a wonderful blogger and has so much of content that leaves you a moment to think about.
And ofcourse,he is a lovely poet too.Do drop by his blog sometime and have a worthwhile reading.
Seven facts about me!!!
1.I prefer to be solitude.
2.I am an Ambivert.
3.I believe in god and he is with us all the time.
4.My goal is to write all the time and get employed for the same.
5.I am a fan of A.R Rahman’s music (Of course ,who is not:-:-).
6.I have mood swings very often these days ,necessary to quit(lemme try).
7.I always have loving people around me and know they will be even when I am wrong.
This is my first time of Versatile awardee and it is very special to me.It has been a long while since I achieved a compliment for my work.It left me overwhelming and you are the reason Piyush Bilandi. I am very much thankful for this act.And hope you will have a good perception on my upcoming posts and blogs.
Now Something Really Interesting About Piyush Bilandi
As I through his blog recently, he had many interesting technology facts going on round the globe.His site is a collection of every piece of electronic gadget from mobiles,network operators their attractive offers and about anything new in the digital world.Do go through his site and know lot many things .
Piyush Bilandi site: https://techtalksandnews.wordpress.com/
Now The Rules of The Versatile blogger Award
- Thank the bloggers who nominated you and share their links.
- Nominate at least 10 bloggers for the award and provide links to their blogs.
- Also inform them about their nomination.
- Reveal 7 facts about yourself that your readers may not know.
The 7 Facts About me
- My passion is to write and to sow the seeds of my thought into the reader’s mind.
- All time admirable book is “A Thousand splendid Suns”.
- My motivation to work harder is my loving mom.
- I have immense respect for those women ,who struggled their life ,to be glorified and to remain memorable.
- I always believe “Life has already ended ,when you didn’t learn from your mistakes”.
- At start ,I was not so happy with my blog.As it did not have a single reader.But very soon my website turned into a celebration with many visitors.And I thank you all for your contribution.This blog soon became my hobby.
- Finally I am a person of love,do not speak much but express at time.A stubborn but has a consoling heart.A writer with no pen in hand:-:-;-
Now The Nominees
Thank you readers!!!
On the sea shore with tides touching my feet and a distant lightning moon witnessing me I held my eyes staring high.Because you are a shining star in the dark sky.
I began to recall all the chattering of ours and our long night outs ,our giggles,our stories of life.
And then I wonder where all of them flew,or may be you took them away from me along with you.
I don’t have a place for happiness in my heart.I don’t smile like before,dress like before,talk like before ,live like before.All I can think is,which I never wanted to be remembered ,it is four of the men carrying you in a coffin and in which you were not a person anymore ,but just a body.
I sit there on the sand and wonder why aren’t you here with me.I jump with my hand trying to hold you.I fall .I try again knowing I will fall.
I am not complaining officer infact I am proud of you for loving you ,and proud for chosing your own death unlike us all.You died for the nation but you are immortal for me.
My daughter ,a 10 year old once asked me “What is a pimple?”.We were on a cushion watching cartoon on a TV and I stopped sipping my coffee to stare at her chubby cheeks and pinkish face,I didn’t find any! well,not then.
Daughter: Maa , what is it? How does it come?
Me:(I thought for a while and all that could flash in my mind is smaller me:-:-:-I was also same worrying about my face,beauty and body,I did not know what to answer her,I don’t want her to grow up like me,so I cooked it up) Sweety ,It is just a sign that you are growing up and don’t you worry ,because it will vanish sooner than you discover it.
Daughter: When will it vanish for you?
Me: (I was pity about her class teacher on how was she handling this cute questionnaire )I smiled and said it doesn’t bother me any more ,because it makes your mama more beautiful ,isn’t it?
Daughter:No,you were good with out it.
And she ran to her friends waiting for her to play.I was there sitting thinking how to convince my kiddo.But look at her age,Not only she had not crossed puberty but she doesn’t know what it is.One afternoon ,it was Sunday and I was washing dishes ,she pointed at my waist and said “what are those scars?”(Those were my stretch marks).I wanted to stop her immediately talking about all these bodily changes.
It was night the same day and we were in a bedroom when I started to narrate on “Kalpana Chawla”.(Well, I prepared for it the whole evening).And I was so happy when she was excited about every part of the biography.
Me:She died in a space shuttle just before entering into earth.
Daughter:(She got up from my lap and exclaimed) “she died!!!”.
Me:(I smiled and said) No, she is re living in my story.So,”When are you growing up to be great like her?
Daughter:Very soon,and I will be greater to her.
Few weeks passed and I did not see her thinking about all the old stuff. In fact ,she bought a book named “Women who inspired the world” from library.You should have seen me then,I was proud of her already.Eventually,she never spoke about them then after.It is not only story of my daughter but story of every girl and woman striving for a shaped body not for her.Our women body is often compared to an Apple shape,Spoon shape and Hourglass shape.It is not about the shape ,the other factors like :thin or fat,height or short,white or black .They don’t define you nor your beauty.You are more than a size,length,color and shape.You don’t live for yourself and you are the reason for lives.For you are a mother,daughter,sister,friend and a girlfriend.No one’s ever here to judge you about your body.You are a way more beautiful with your work,patience,caring,loving and living.Love your body anyway and stay healthy.
Have you been in a situation when you felt someone to be there for you ,when nothing worked out and you did not have anything left to do.So,there you are sobbing and sobbing,continued until your eyes stopped the flow and then dried.Have it ever occurred to you ,if only someone was there for you, the situation would have been better and warming.Someone who had a sense to know,to suggest,to console and to be there for you.
I am sure everyone of you have been in that place and thought the same more than once.But my friend, you would have got one to stay with you then, only if you were there for someone when they needed you to be.Everyone here encounters failure , rejection,humiliation ,bullying .All of them might have come past it and few are in the present .As a fellow being ,as a person who faced it before ,as an individual with a responsibility.Make time from your schedule ,approach them ,console them and don’t forget to ask “Are you okay?”.It will be your smallest unit of contribution to their relief.Because,not all of us pays back for our grief and get things right to what they were before.It is not that I am suggesting you to move on ,fight for what you deserve ,fight for your identity,fight for it is your right ,fight for the cause,fight for your independence.But every brave heart needs a person in their bad time as you did before.Hence help them to get over it .
“She is an attractive talker and a good listener too.She had time for you ,when she has to attend a million works.She was with you,when she was wanted by many.She did not leave you when you intended to,not because she doesn’t value you ,because she cares for you.You were not her alternative ,she chose you among many and you are the only one choice.She fought for you,she stood by you,she sacrificed for you,she consoled you,she encouraged you,she caressed you.Hence,
When was the last time you spent time with her?When was the last time you made her smile?When was the last time you complimented her?Or should I put it in this way ,when was the last time you loved her?Don’t you think it’s your turn now.”
I noticed silence for about few minutes.And I heard them (putting their hands together).I was giggling and left the place with thank you.Well,it is the least compliment everyone could get.But,the matter is I did well.I imagined this entire speech practicing like a one hundred times.But this was the best among all of them.Yeah,I didn’t tell you, today is activity day which means we are supposed to talk ,act,write.Of course this is what we do on non-activity day.This is little special with not having a bossy editor who monitors on your writings.We are free to express anything.But,my left eye started blinking,there should be something waiting for me ,as everything went on well till now,I thought. As my eye lashes were dashing into each other at a speed 3 ×10²³ m/sec.I was sitting on my chair when some of my so called friends complimented me on the speech,I thanked them .
I was not interested to work ,so stood up and stared into everyone laughing,gossiping.Looking into someone like that would make me feel walking on the thorns.Eventually,I wanted to leave.But you know,our office is like a one way thing ,you only have the choice to get in and the other it only happens in the late night. Perhaps ,I should just gossip with my system then.Then I saw him and murmured “Here comes the Philanthropist”.Now this is something great ,isn’t it?Everyone gets to enjoy with their friends and am here with regular work.But Ayush, just waved at me and went into editor’s office.I hoped he would never come back.I have a “I am so selfish” kinda feeling when I talk to him.
Great!!! Aditi ,You always complain people about gossiping and now you were just sitting in that chair and judging everyone on your way. Doesn’t make much difference,does it?
tik tik tik tik tik………………..
I woke up and was so indelible to get ready ,combed my hair ,put on shoe ,grabbed my backpack,Which I packed last night with reusable water bottle,walking stick,Sunscreen SPF ,trousers and shirts with few snacks.Yes,Yes,Yes I am going on a trek.I was flying in between clouds with over exhilaration .Many things were revolving round my head like where it would start?How does it go on?What I would be like at the end of the day? Yeah,I know I am over reacting .But,Guysss My friends are here after a very long time of anticipation.And,Finally came up with this plan. Wouldn’t you be the same?
Before I left ,I checked everything was closed and switched off ,in place and locked the apartment.I started ,an hour before the expected time.
It was another usual day so called monday , a day with so much of detachment .Not that I am disinterested at work,It was the choice of mine and mine alone.Could not think much of past then,every corner of my body is aching like a hell and when I put two feet on the floor ,its like am getting in touch with fire.None of my body parts supported ,but still I wanted to run to office just to share about yesterday things.I was having coffee when I had call from one of my colleague .As a consequence,I was in office with a client in front of me.Assuming you still remember the guy(with all that handicrafts).I just wonder why would one want to start a store like that.Don’t they see people craving for fashion and want to stand away from the crowd.Okay,Okay,I am back to my senses and hope I should owe a resolution right the next moment to focus only on my work.
Ayush:What do you think about the site?
Me: (My eyes were struck to the laptop and did not blink for a while).It is WOW!!!How did you come up with so much beauty ,in just few days?
Ayush:Well,I had to rush up for those kids.
Me: your Kids?You are married?
Ayush:(He laughed out so loud)No,Not really.60 % of our earnings are donated to the orphans.Those orphan homes have been facing a lot of crisis since last year.Hence,we all came up with this idea.
Me:(was silent initially,quickly made up some words),excellent,perfect,super… etc,etc.I would not give a rupee to a child on roadside(month ending) I thought.
I watched him go as he left I know this is not me ,not emotional in a way though.
Like every day,it was bright and intense ,sun emitting its true colors.I drove on my bike and went into office so hurriedly that I could not possibly make an eye-contact with anyone and went to my desk.It took some time for me to adjust ,then everyone started to wish “Good Morning ” ,knowing who it is,I stood in my place and greeted him,when he looked at me, signaled me to come in,with his hand.I went in immediately into his cubicle ,a few minutes later,he asked me to call the person waiting in the hall.I accompanied myself with the man from the hall to the cubicle.My editor introduced me to the man saying “He is the founder of a new startup , planning to build a website for his company.So,you’re job here is to present the site more verbally,literally with the words.”and he stopped.I did not say anything in response, he also told me to take the person to my desk and to know about their product.I took him along with me to my desk ,I asked for his name ,he said “I am Ayush”,forwarded his hand .I told him “Ayush ,will you wait for a sec ,I will be back” and ran into editor’s office.
“Sir,I don’t understand,this is what I have been doing in my initial stage .Importantly ,I have done many more.”I was still speaking and he interrupted me telling to close the door when leaving the office.I had nothing to do,he did not even ask me for an explanation of my mistake.I sat down on my chair and looked above.As I saw him with a smile then I came back to my senses and pulled a chair from my desk and said “Ayush, sit and so sorry for the delay”.He seemed to be cooler and asked if he can start.
Ayush: We are building a site for online shopping and it holds the handicrafts such as greetings,paintings,show pieces…blah,blah,blah.
(I was gazing onto the wall ,left side of him and did not pay any concentration to what he was telling……then I heard no word .So,I looked at him.)
Ayush: What do you say?
Me: wow!!!!That’s a brilliant idea.Why don’t you start immediately?
Ayush: (laughing with all his 32 teeth) yeah,we have already started and that is why I am here
Me: I laughed too(not in a mood though).I will start as soon as you send me the website with its full structure and complete with the products.
Ayush: Thank you!!!
(we shook hands and he left)
It was 1:30 PM .And I peeked into editor’s office standing in front of the door.Then I felt like a one ton of weight on my shoulder.As an effect I moved forward ,my nose got hit to the door and I turned back to see.So,here he is (Editor sir),without any delay I told him all the things that took place yesterday and the reason for our argument.
Editor: Wait,wait,wait.I know all this before,everyone in the office told me what happened .But,the reason I gave you this work today is the assigned writer for it is on leave.So,respected Aditi will you do it for us without any extra charge(smiling with a wink).
Me:(My heart was so relaxed when I heard him)Of Course,sir.